Friends and Malaysia

Another two weeks, and i'll have to get back to Ames. Its not really a sad thing at all, its just the beginning of new excitements, new challenges. It has been a month since im back from the states, and it has been a great month despite of some missuderstanding and others.. Not really important to mention them anymore, its over :)

I hung out with a few good friends of mine. We went on and on chatting about the old times.. ' how we burried the buku ponteng behind bilik kebal, how I helped Matt hide his cell during spotcheck, how Bintang was losing that time during sukan when we were in F5.. ' it comes with a lot of laughter and joy, and its simply relaxing.. Jenna, Kuhanesh and black sotong 'sasee' is still the same, Matthew is taller than me now, but still adorable. Chris remains short, wai loon is still my good o'brother and yee zhen never changed at all! My college buddies: Chin Wah, Pui Yan, Cheryl.. oh my!! feeling so lucky to have these people in my life. These are the people who will live with you through your deepest down time, go through your 'thickest' and 'thinnest' with you. if you have a chance to know them, remember to not let them pass you by, they are indeed hard to find.

I have two weeks more in Malaysia, ( Always sounds better than ' i have two weeks left in Malaysia').. its time to schedule last minute dental appointment, make new pair of contact lens, buy a new badminton racquet maybe~ and I want to 'da pao' some friends back to the states too.. :(

I've recently been quite down, I cannot sit by myself because I'll tend to think nonsense. Good thing Matthew kept on bugging me to watch every new movies coming out, and thank God my new good friend, Kin Yew. Who doesn't mind watching horror with me, and hear me laugh at myself like donkey at the end of the movie. My dear Yee Ling, who will try to plan something and hang out with me almost every weekend.. hahahha! and Chin Wah, good thing she's studying in U of M, which means I can visit her more often in the states now.

I'm assuming that life back in the States this Fall will be a challenge for me. Regardless of work, studies or relationship. Sometimes, when you hit rock bottom, there is no other way to go but going up. But whatever it is, I like to start believing for the best, for a friend once told me to live true to my heart.. if there is no hope, there won't be betterment~

p/s: Thanks Linh, thanks for the all the advise.. really appreciate it. Thanks Matt, Chin Wah, Yee Ling and Kin Yew.. you were all there when i fell down, thanks for helping me up.. :)

John Legend

I've been listening to John Legend a lot lately. His songs somehow speaks my mind.. When no one understands how you feel, and you suddenly heard this songs that put all that in your head into words.. its simply amazing...

It gets harder every day, but I cant seem to shake the pain
Im trying to find the words to say, please stay
Its written all over my face, I cant Function the same when youre not here
Im calling your name and no ones there
And I hope one day youll see nobody has it easy,
I still cant believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
Weve heard it all before, that
everybody knows How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

I dont care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby dont fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just dont know

The radios on, you tuning me out,
Im trying to speak, youre turning me down
And I hope one day youll see nobody has it easy,
I still cant believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
Weve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try


Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows
Oh I wish youd understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Listen wed have known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows

And I know one day youll see, nobody has it easy
I still cant believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess.
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
Weve heard it all before, that everybody knows
How to make it right, I wish we gave it
One more try


Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Really? i dont think so..

I read a friend's post and in it she mentioned that sometimes fate just put two person together just to rip them apart. I can't help but to feel my heart aching. Really? is that really true? why would they do that?

I've recently seen a lot of my friends broke up and i've heard stories about how the girl had cheated on her boyfriend when they were already dating for 8 years. Some couples were together for years but things still doesnt work out. Some has only been together for months and they now are married and live happily. I think fate put two person together to test how much they love each other, if they are willing to compromise and be positive about future. it is only when love is gone, then they will be ripped apart.

Theres always ups and downs in life, what more about relationship? not just about two person being together, but family, friends, even pets! My dog, lucky will sometimes gets on my nerves. She will bite my brand new slippers, bite a hole on my socks. I was so mad, I took my slippers and hit her so hard. But the next day, i still love to pet her and even give her my remaining pair of socks to have fun with. If some one messes with my dog, i will mess with them!

We are all created in God's image. He made us emotional and sometimes irrational. But there are nothing in this world, where problems cannot be solved and conflicts cannot be settled. It boils down to the point when you are asked if you really want to solve this or not. Every confilct, every downtime is a learning process. Couples occasionally tripped, all you got to do is sweep off the dirt and stand up again. If you cannot do it yourself, have the person next to you to help. Now that is the point of being together. Love each other, help each other, share joy and laughter, share problems and challenges..

'Distance makes the heart grows fonder' . My aunt and uncle were successful business personnel. One based in Beijing while another travels very frequently around Asia. They never stop making effort to call each other, meet each other. And all is because they just genuinely care and love each other. When love is so genuine, trust is so strong. It is amazing how it is so unconditional.
If you are in a long distance relationship, or you are probably facing one in the future.. Dont be afraid, dont think of the unnecessary 'what-ifs'.. its all a waste of time. Begin trusting, start believing and don't stop hoping for the best. it all grows from within.. look into heart, do what your hearts tell you to do. You are not solving math questions, relationship is not like x or y, alpha or beta.. your brain cannot tell you how to substract or divide..

I was once told by the person i love so so much that long distance works or not depends on how much you treasure and value your relationship. If you do treasure the memories and value each other, I do not believe that love cannot keep two person together.

Whatever reasons will be cover ups, all cover ups are excuses. When that happened... look into your heart, stop. and ask this question:' do you still love this person?' after you ask this important question, dont forget to listen.

and listen again.







p/s: I love you.

*foosh!* disappeared~

so i heard a story yesterday about all the world leaders.. this is how it goes::~

one day, all these influencial leaders, they all died. All of them.. sadaam, bill C, Osama and even Anwar. They were all standing at the gate and to be determine if they go to heaven or hell.

They were told not to sin at all and will all have to resist temptations and should never be distracted. OR ELSE, they will disappear and end up in hell.

all of a sudden as the guard was talking, a gun appeared in front of Osama. Without hesistant, Osama picked it up and point it at the guard. *FOOSH*!! he disappeared! because he failed the test, he could not resist the temptation to kill and so he SINed.

All of the other leaders started to panick now. As they were all sweating about it, a very young beautiful woman stood infront of sadaam. Sadaam reach out to the girl and *FOOSH!* he went missing too..

not long after that, a shiny gold bar appeared infront of Bill C. It was shinny, glossy, flashy... its almost perfect! As bill C bents down to pick up the gold bar...


*FOOSH*!!! Anwar DISAPPEARED!!!

i wonder why~ he he..

Random

1. I am going out to watch transformers again
2. I am going to run 30 minutes later on the threadmill
3. I am thinking why he is not picking up my calls
4. I am afraid of losing him
5. I am sorry
6. I dont want to eat later
7. I am thinking of where to bring Trong
8. I brought books home but i didnt read them at all
9. I am giving up the man U games in bukit jalil for my father
10. I enjoy being around my boyfriend's family
11. Hendrick and kin yew is so hillarious
12. My mom is worried about me and him
13. I want this to last
14. Lucky needs a bath
15. I will be hell busy next semester
16. I am not a superwoman
17. I think I am sick
18. I love hanging out with chin wah
19. I love aku, jenna, and sasee's company
20. How come sasee cannot swim?
21. OH i need to register for Cy-man today
22. How about the tioman trip?
23. I am going to have lunch sunday afternoon with uncle, aunty and yee ling
24. Kin yew is dating my good friend's sister
25. this is such a small world
26. I miss zi ting
27. I want to hang out with 6326
28. I want to plant flowers in the 245 balcony
29. Did esther pay rent for July?
30. I only want to eat roti bakar
31. oh that stupid 5 ringgit joke
32. i like to read linh's blog
33. is seth trainning very hard?
34. Jenna must be crazy in love now
35. I feel like i should go run now
36. Should i ta pao something later?
37. I miss yi li very much
38. I want to visit china
39. Im excited that trong is visiting malaysia
40. I want to fit into that dress
41. I want to settle down
42. sushi zanmai has good desserts
43. missing oliver's over exaggerating expresion
44. I renewed pasport today
45. i chopped off my fringe
46. I look funny
47. I am lamer now than before
48. I am not special
49. I am the rule
50. not the exception

i am tired.

'Rachel, you didnt change at all, you are still the same Rachel I know. You are still so up for challenges,, and still so hard on yourself.'

-chin wah-

i wish theres an 'undo' or a 'delete' button. Too bad, theres no such thing in life. Now i got to bare the consequences for the things I've said. Pray hard, so that things will still be the same.

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